Everyone that knows me, knows that I like to be very independent. I don't want to have to rely on anyone for anything. Some people are born that way and some people have just taught themselves to become that way. For me, I remember the specific day that my mindset changed for the rest of my life.
It was the day that I decided to go to college. It was in February of 2012, I was a senior in high school, and I was pregnant. I had somewhat put college out of my future. I felt that I needed to just start working full time after high school to be able to provide for Mason. One day I literally just flipped a switch. I woke up that morning and I decided that I needed to go to college, because I wasn't going to be able to rely on Mason's father to provide for us. I had to make a future for Mason and I, and I wanted that future to be a positive one.
At the time Mason's father and I were together but I knew it just wasn't going to workout. I knew he wasn't truly in the relationship. Thankfully I made this decision because just a month later he broke up with me when I was 7 months pregnant. I did not cry a single tear when he broke up with me because I had known for a long time it would be coming. He did it over a text while I was in 3rd period art class. I told my parents and one of my friends in the class with me. Besides those few people it took me awhile to tell anyone because I knew everyone else would be more upset than I was. I had made the decision to do online school my first year of college and then finish my last year at Norfolk. No one was going to stop me from achieving that goal no matter how hard they tried.
Because of my experience at 17 years old I have always told myself that I never want to be at someones mercy. I want to be successful and earn everything myself. Everything that I have, I have paid for myself.....my education, my house, my car, my everything. I know some people may think that the government has paid for a lot of what I have or also my school. I have not taken assistance from the government. I have nothing against those that use it that need it. I just have a different mentality. I am very strong willed and hard headed. I like to do things by myself without assistance. I feel 10 times better about not having something because I can't afford it than having something that I know I didn't pay for. I just want everyone to know that if I can do it, you can do it. It's not going to be easy but you will appreciate everything a lot more.
It was the day that I decided to go to college. It was in February of 2012, I was a senior in high school, and I was pregnant. I had somewhat put college out of my future. I felt that I needed to just start working full time after high school to be able to provide for Mason. One day I literally just flipped a switch. I woke up that morning and I decided that I needed to go to college, because I wasn't going to be able to rely on Mason's father to provide for us. I had to make a future for Mason and I, and I wanted that future to be a positive one.
At the time Mason's father and I were together but I knew it just wasn't going to workout. I knew he wasn't truly in the relationship. Thankfully I made this decision because just a month later he broke up with me when I was 7 months pregnant. I did not cry a single tear when he broke up with me because I had known for a long time it would be coming. He did it over a text while I was in 3rd period art class. I told my parents and one of my friends in the class with me. Besides those few people it took me awhile to tell anyone because I knew everyone else would be more upset than I was. I had made the decision to do online school my first year of college and then finish my last year at Norfolk. No one was going to stop me from achieving that goal no matter how hard they tried.
Because of my experience at 17 years old I have always told myself that I never want to be at someones mercy. I want to be successful and earn everything myself. Everything that I have, I have paid for myself.....my education, my house, my car, my everything. I know some people may think that the government has paid for a lot of what I have or also my school. I have not taken assistance from the government. I have nothing against those that use it that need it. I just have a different mentality. I am very strong willed and hard headed. I like to do things by myself without assistance. I feel 10 times better about not having something because I can't afford it than having something that I know I didn't pay for. I just want everyone to know that if I can do it, you can do it. It's not going to be easy but you will appreciate everything a lot more.
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