When I was at college at NECC I loved going to class. I loved going because the whole year previously I had done college online. You don't know how great it is to listen to a teacher and be around other students until you have taken online classes. One day about halfway through the semester I was in my business management class. It was one of my biggest classes with about 30 students. That day we were learning about diversity. My teacher did a little activity where she read something off and if it pertained to you, you stood up to show there was diversity everywhere. She started off by naming an eye color, then religion, and race, she went on and on and then she got to...children. I took a deep breath and stood up. All eyes were on me because I was the only one standing. There were literally gasps in the classroom (I am not even kidding). I am sure that my classmates thought that they knew me but they had just found out that they really didn't. My teacher knew from the beginning of the year that I had a son. She just gave me a smile and once I sat down she commended me and told the class how hard it is to go to school with a child. At that point I was almost in tears. I didn't care that everyone knew I had a child it was that she was pointing out that it was more of a struggle for me to get to class everyday and to get my homework done. I didn't want to be seen or treated any differently. To me I was just like all of the other students going to class. There were so many emotions going through me but once I sat down I had to face my friends in the class. They started whispering to me that they had no idea and that they never would have guessed. Then the questions started coming, are you engaged or married? Where is the dad? Most of my classes knew I had a kid but in this one it had just never came up. I didn't hang out with any of them outside of the class, so it was a bit of a surprise. I went to class to learn and get a degree not really to socialize and tell my life story. That day it was pointed out to everyone that I was different from all of them.
I just came across this article today on Facebook and it reminded me so much of myself, so I had to share it. At the end of the article I will share my thoughts on it. Why the Strongest Girls Are Insecure By Holly Riordan She has high standards. She won’t settle for boys that treat her disrespectfully. She won’t hold onto friendships that are toxic. She won’t let anyone that brings her down remain in her life. But she isn’t a hypocrite. She holds herself to those same standards. She expects herself to reach the stars, so she hates herself on the days when she sits in bed with a bag of chips and skips the gym. On the days when she doesn’t get enough done. Of course, no matter how much she accomplishes in life, no matter how much love she gives, she keeps pushing herself further. She wants to do more. To be more. Because she knows she’s capable of more. She’s insecure, because she believes in her potential and she knows that she hasn’t reached it...
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